I move slow and steady, but I feel like a waterfall.
Yeah I move slow and steady, past the ones I used to know.
He laughs at me and says,
‘I have been right beside you this whole time.
I was the warmth on your pillow,
and I was the breeze on a Sunday morning.
I was the silence in the middle of the day,
the dust floating in streams of sunlight,
the peace of mind that defied all logic.
I was in your best friends advice,
and in the forgiveness of everyone who has ever been hurt.
I was with you this entire time,
but more than that,
I AM.’ I asked God, “Where have you been?” (via choc-o-late)
II. On my worst days, the sky was a festering wound that wouldn’t heal. I didn’t want to be that to you.
III. On my worst days, you were the only word I could say without clenching my fists.
IV. I really did love you, I just couldn’t claw my way out of the ground to do it properly.
V. None of this was your fault.
VI. I’m sorry I was your lighthouse. I’m sorry you couldn’t see the wall of rocks on my shore. I wrote out six messages, then erased them all (via burberrystyles)
my brain is good at deleting bits and pieces of the past I don’t want to remember.
but it leaves me with these emotions that make no sense.
I’m going to read the Book of John, Screwtape Letters by C.S Lewis, and A Year of Biblical Womanhood by Rachel Held Evans.
and I will be so satisfied in Jesus that literally nothing else is going to matter.
this slump needs to end
It’s so embarrassing how fragile I am now
Sitting in an empty classroom crying cool.
I thought I was over you and I thought I was okay and lately everything just keeps rushing back to me and it hurts so much. I don’t want to believe that you’re okay with never talking to me again after all we’ve been through. I miss you so much and you don’t even care.
"I wish I had better friends. Like duplicates of you but they all look different "